Wake up call

Damn! Sebel banget liburan ini bikin gak produktif bangeeet, i prefer busy like bee than doing nothing, selama liburan yang ada dipikiran, udaah gapapa leyeh-leyeh, mumpung libur, pas galau akademis sama galau masa depan bukanya jadi optimis, malah pesimis, And oh my.. this damned pesimistic is killing me slowly, ruined my activities whole day, kerjaan cuma maen ama nge-zombie dan yg lebih parah ibadah gue jek masyaAllah subuhan jam 7, apa-apa ditunda-tunda, tapi Allah nyadarin aku hari ini, di hari terakhir liburan

Aku baca2 blog orang and JEDER yeah i realized taht i'm being such a big jerk -_____-
First dr *click*
Ini beberapa penggal kuliah umum yang disampaikan Prof. BJ Habibie di Aachen, Jerman, yang aku copy dari blognya si embaknya di atas :)

"Saya cerita ini, untuk memberikan motivasi. Jangan lagi mencari-cari alasan. Tidak ada alasan untuk mengatakan tidak mampu, menyalahkan pemerintah dan keadaan, pokoknya mampu! Orang berpendidikan jangan sekedar jadi kuli atau pembantu. Anda harus cari jalan keluar permasalahan di Indonesia. Bukan lagi saya yang harus melakukan, giliran anda. I am soon gonna join my wife. Tapi sebelumnya ini saya kasih dulu tongkat estafetnya, generasi anda lanjutkan.

Saya punya prinsip ada lima. Work very very hard. Be honest and fair. Be professional. Be low-profile. Dan satu lagi, you have to move very fast." 

MasyaAllah *speechless*
sekarang orang males udah so yesterday banget, mental males, telat, klemar-klemer, nunda2, buang jauh-jauh haaaaan
Believe you can, masih banyak yang harus kamu pelajari, masih banyak hal kamu raih, masih banyak tempat yang belum kamu kunjungin, dan masih banyak impian yang belum kamu wujudin, tinggal gimana usahamu han, Allah pasti ngabulin atau ngasih yang jauh lebih baik :)

Second dr *click*
 Nah yang ini bikin lagsung sadar diri, takuut, selama ini cuma berpikir, ah ibadahku kan udah mending dari pada si ini, si itu baaaaah cetek bangeeet Astaghfirullah :'(
apakah ibadahku yg moody ini bisa dibanggakan nantinya? MasyaAllah aku koreksi diri, Alhamdulillah Allah udah nyadarin kamu han, yok hap hap haaaaaap semangat lagi \m/ Seorang muslim yang baik selain ibadahnya yang oke, dunianya juga pasti luar biasa :D

Role model

Gaza gathering money for Somalia, maybe its too late but i just read about this. people in Gaza gathering money for Somalia. They whose struggling everyday for "still life" until tommorow consider and help their brother and sister in Somalia. They show me about truly kindness, they may have nothing, but their heart are rich, what about us? what we've done for help others? *cry on shame*

Still

Still fresh in my mind when we had coversation few days ago, he said her name
Still..he said her name like it is magic word
Still..he said her name and seems like his mind driving to her
Still..seems like she is the only girl in his world
Still..seems like she is everything for him
Still..seems like he deeply in love with her, maybe he can't go away from her

And Damn, there is still this feeling in my heart for him

Unyuuu :3

Photoshoot by my dear cousin Mas Habib , Anyaaaa and the model is his youngest sister Aida :) 

Isn't she so cute? :3

 

Favourite part of Paris, Je t'aime

• Zarka: You're even worse at this than getting girls.
• Franois: My friends do that stuff, not me.
• Zarka: They're pathetic.
• Franois: You have beautiful hair, why do you have to cover it up?
• Zarka: I don't have to. I choose to.
• Franois: Too bad, 'cause you're so pretty.
• Zarka: You mean I'm not beautiful in my hijab?
• Franois: [laughs] That's not what I meant.
• Zarka: You and your friends don't know shit about women. Why talk to them like that? When you can see they don't like it? If I want to look beautiful, I do it for me. When I wear this I feel part of a faith, an identity. I feel good. That's what beauty is. Tell that to your friends. Then maybe one day, they might even get laid.

Weekend = Blast :D

Alhamdulillah thanks to Allah I had a blast this weekend,
Saturday,
Me, syahra, arki and vania went to shopping hunting for textbook (yeah textbook our weapon to face senior year -____-) but it was so exiting cause we can buy good book, good quality with cheap price :) plus i bought an english-novel titled "The Bridge Across Forever" its old book, but its fine, i just try to improve my vocabulary. Then we went to Il Mondo (Jl Cendrawasih 21A
Demangan, Jogjakarta). But its to early to have luch so we had window shopping around strores at Cendrawasih street, u u the bag and sandal in starcross intrigued my eyes (saving, saving for it haha). There is not much pizzeria in Jogja, but Mondo has similar type of Italian pizza, thin and crispy bread. We had Black Pepper pizza and crostini for lunch. I always love part when we waiting for our food or after enjoying food cause we'll talk about anything, sharing stories, laugh together :D
After that we borrow movie then went Arki house to watched it. The movie is "When in Rome" woow hilarious :D hahaha love it <3

Sunday,
First in the morning went to market with beloved mom to bought food for Ramadhan :D then I went to Amplaz to watched "Harry Potter part II" with Asa, Tika, Devy, and Arki. Reached at 21 there was a line until the escalator  --" (Thanks to Asa, so we already had the ticket and no need to queue)
The overall its good, i thought i will not cried at severus part cause I already read the novel but no, my eyes went wet when part of severus memory :") so bad that's the last movie of Harry Potter sequel, Still fresh in my memory when the first time I watched Harry Potter, and when I'm 11 yo, I pray for mail from hogwarts, yeah silly me hahaha
After watching movies, we bought some snack at Bread Talk, then we went to school to take our sweater, yeah class's sweater <3
Then we had late-lunch at Galeria, in Gale I've found some kind of dramatical moment: a couple that broke up, the woman cried, begging to the man, yeah in mall, maybe their lose their mind. Then two woman talking about their relationship so dramatically -____-
Alhamdulillah thanks to Allah I'm into drama-free life, of course I'm facing hard times, struggle times, but it's better not put too much on small things, now I understand everybody's getting old, but being mature is a choice :)

PSIKOPAD! #6 :''D

yeah thanks to Allah and to all PSIKOPAD! #6 and to all of Padmanaba member that had supported PSIKOPAD! #6 :'D
So happy to realize that is done yeah hana its doneee yeaaa :"D
Wanna tell you behind the scene of PSIKOPAD #6
This journey begins when ivan and ben and me have a talk, they asked me to be usaha dana coordinator just call it "co usda" . You know, that time, after "Padmanaba Cup 2010" done i feel that its not stopped now, then what a gift! i'm being a part of PSIKOPAD! #6 crew, with Ivan Pratama as a chairman (i think i have enrolled many events w/ him pphk, padcup, then psikopad -___- ). I said to ben and ivan that i want to talk to my parents first, but its kinda 80% yes beacuse it cannot be nobody else, then i go home, i cried on my way home, i just can't hold it, i called vivin but she didn't take it, then i called syahra, then i go to her house to talk to her, i just can't hold it for myself. Its was a big pressure, i came home, i was afraid to talk to my parents, i ask Ivan for help, then i talk w/ my mother, then I said yes to be co usda PSIKOPAD! #6
Pressure and stressful days come from January till 22nd May 2011
Problems came and will never go if  i didn't solve it, I was afraid to wake in the morning because i was afraid what problems today, strict schedule, tons of things to do, i can't focus on lesson on school, i forget to eat, parents fight again and again, they wanted to divorce, other side i must control my 22 partners to made our project clear, you know, almost every night i cried on my sleep, cried on my prays, cried when share it with my friends. I can't be explode person, I just cried. I smile to school, pretend to be everything-allright to everybody because smile is the last reason for me to be happy (writing this with tears is like open such as scar)
But I thanked to Allah, because i learn many things yeah many things from PSIKOPAD! #6
Problem will never gone, exept you fix it. Learn to be more positive, use my time well, keep working, and the best lesson is Back to Allah, yes Allah will granted your dreams as long as you work hard and pray . be strong and keep going. World is never easy never kind , weak person just can't survive in this wolrd.

Then 22nd May 2011, Allah granted our dream, paid our hard work

picture taken fom Kalawarta Padmanaba

stike back ;)

yuhuuu mommaa is homeee hahaha
its holiday yeeaay actually we must go to school if we had remedial test but if not its our rights to spend a whole day :D
then because PSIKOPAD! #6 done it's like free feeling (i promise to write more about psikopad next time)
i can read more books, watch more movies, lot of time to be killed haha but its give me chance to apply the lesson that i have learn from psikopad!#6 "use your time well, doing something worth it, and just do it!"
So i kind of make over my blog ( and loved the result :)) ) so i can blabbering here, i'm trying to write in english because i want to learn more and fix my bad-english
very exited to write more, see ya ;)