Mewujudkan Wacana

Hari ini super panjang. Pagi membuka mata, rasanya badan ini tidak mau melepas dekapan selimut. Rasanya kurang enak badan tapi apa daya pekerjaan memanggil. Aku menyampirkan tas dan kamera di pundak dan mulai melangkah ke kampus. Hari ini BOEconomica menyambut tamu lagi. Seminggu yang lalu dari Republika UNDIP, kali ini dari Media Preventia FKM UI. Pagi hingga siang kulewati masih dengan mood yang flat. Mendekor ulang mading dengan bumbu cerita dengan Kak M pun masih terlewati dengan mood yang belum meningkat. Ah hapeku bergetar. Yak satu pekerjaan lagi menanti. A dan R tidak bisa meliput acara Kanopi. Maka aku datang meliput. Karena waktu yang singkat impian makan siang pun hanya bisa diwujudkan dengan 2 bungkus roti dan es teh. Tetapi aku sama sekali tidak menyesal. Karena aku datang meliput Economic Sharing; acara menampilkan figur-figur alumni IE UI dengan berbagai latar belakang untuk berbagi cerita dengan Mahasiswa Baru IE UI. Salah satu pembicara adalah orang yang saya kagumi yaitu Ka Kiki, beliau adalah asisten Ibu Marie Elka. And somehow after ES over i feel like be draggin to the reality. After comeback to Kostan. I set up my Daily Challenges and Goals for 2013. Try to set up my life so I can live my life to the fullest. Daily Challenges is kind of investment for a good habit. I really exited to check those list of goals for 2013. At this moment I had two checklist for OPK 2013 that had been done and of course HUT BOE 35 yang udah terlaksana hari sabtu lalu.Maybe I'll post the pict later. So Semangat! Semoga di akhir tahun nanti or actually next semester aku bakal post listnya dengan seluruh centangan pada setiap kotaknya. HAP HAP! SEMANGAT MEWUJUDKAN WACANAS! Stay Humble, Stay Positive, and Have Unlimited Enthusiasm!

Its Ben's Tail, my Baby Camera.

Wake up call

Damn! Sebel banget liburan ini bikin gak produktif bangeeet, i prefer busy like bee than doing nothing, selama liburan yang ada dipikiran, udaah gapapa leyeh-leyeh, mumpung libur, pas galau akademis sama galau masa depan bukanya jadi optimis, malah pesimis, And oh my.. this damned pesimistic is killing me slowly, ruined my activities whole day, kerjaan cuma maen ama nge-zombie dan yg lebih parah ibadah gue jek masyaAllah subuhan jam 7, apa-apa ditunda-tunda, tapi Allah nyadarin aku hari ini, di hari terakhir liburan

Aku baca2 blog orang and JEDER yeah i realized taht i'm being such a big jerk -_____-
First dr *click*
Ini beberapa penggal kuliah umum yang disampaikan Prof. BJ Habibie di Aachen, Jerman, yang aku copy dari blognya si embaknya di atas :)

"Saya cerita ini, untuk memberikan motivasi. Jangan lagi mencari-cari alasan. Tidak ada alasan untuk mengatakan tidak mampu, menyalahkan pemerintah dan keadaan, pokoknya mampu! Orang berpendidikan jangan sekedar jadi kuli atau pembantu. Anda harus cari jalan keluar permasalahan di Indonesia. Bukan lagi saya yang harus melakukan, giliran anda. I am soon gonna join my wife. Tapi sebelumnya ini saya kasih dulu tongkat estafetnya, generasi anda lanjutkan.

Saya punya prinsip ada lima. Work very very hard. Be honest and fair. Be professional. Be low-profile. Dan satu lagi, you have to move very fast." 

MasyaAllah *speechless*
sekarang orang males udah so yesterday banget, mental males, telat, klemar-klemer, nunda2, buang jauh-jauh haaaaan
Believe you can, masih banyak yang harus kamu pelajari, masih banyak hal kamu raih, masih banyak tempat yang belum kamu kunjungin, dan masih banyak impian yang belum kamu wujudin, tinggal gimana usahamu han, Allah pasti ngabulin atau ngasih yang jauh lebih baik :)

Second dr *click*
 Nah yang ini bikin lagsung sadar diri, takuut, selama ini cuma berpikir, ah ibadahku kan udah mending dari pada si ini, si itu baaaaah cetek bangeeet Astaghfirullah :'(
apakah ibadahku yg moody ini bisa dibanggakan nantinya? MasyaAllah aku koreksi diri, Alhamdulillah Allah udah nyadarin kamu han, yok hap hap haaaaaap semangat lagi \m/ Seorang muslim yang baik selain ibadahnya yang oke, dunianya juga pasti luar biasa :D

PSIKOPAD! #6 :''D

yeah thanks to Allah and to all PSIKOPAD! #6 and to all of Padmanaba member that had supported PSIKOPAD! #6 :'D
So happy to realize that is done yeah hana its doneee yeaaa :"D
Wanna tell you behind the scene of PSIKOPAD #6
This journey begins when ivan and ben and me have a talk, they asked me to be usaha dana coordinator just call it "co usda" . You know, that time, after "Padmanaba Cup 2010" done i feel that its not stopped now, then what a gift! i'm being a part of PSIKOPAD! #6 crew, with Ivan Pratama as a chairman (i think i have enrolled many events w/ him pphk, padcup, then psikopad -___- ). I said to ben and ivan that i want to talk to my parents first, but its kinda 80% yes beacuse it cannot be nobody else, then i go home, i cried on my way home, i just can't hold it, i called vivin but she didn't take it, then i called syahra, then i go to her house to talk to her, i just can't hold it for myself. Its was a big pressure, i came home, i was afraid to talk to my parents, i ask Ivan for help, then i talk w/ my mother, then I said yes to be co usda PSIKOPAD! #6
Pressure and stressful days come from January till 22nd May 2011
Problems came and will never go if  i didn't solve it, I was afraid to wake in the morning because i was afraid what problems today, strict schedule, tons of things to do, i can't focus on lesson on school, i forget to eat, parents fight again and again, they wanted to divorce, other side i must control my 22 partners to made our project clear, you know, almost every night i cried on my sleep, cried on my prays, cried when share it with my friends. I can't be explode person, I just cried. I smile to school, pretend to be everything-allright to everybody because smile is the last reason for me to be happy (writing this with tears is like open such as scar)
But I thanked to Allah, because i learn many things yeah many things from PSIKOPAD! #6
Problem will never gone, exept you fix it. Learn to be more positive, use my time well, keep working, and the best lesson is Back to Allah, yes Allah will granted your dreams as long as you work hard and pray . be strong and keep going. World is never easy never kind , weak person just can't survive in this wolrd.

Then 22nd May 2011, Allah granted our dream, paid our hard work

picture taken fom Kalawarta Padmanaba

stike back ;)

yuhuuu mommaa is homeee hahaha
its holiday yeeaay actually we must go to school if we had remedial test but if not its our rights to spend a whole day :D
then because PSIKOPAD! #6 done it's like free feeling (i promise to write more about psikopad next time)
i can read more books, watch more movies, lot of time to be killed haha but its give me chance to apply the lesson that i have learn from psikopad!#6 "use your time well, doing something worth it, and just do it!"
So i kind of make over my blog ( and loved the result :)) ) so i can blabbering here, i'm trying to write in english because i want to learn more and fix my bad-english
very exited to write more, see ya ;)