Doa.

Kata orang cara mencintai paling indah adalah dengan mendoakan. Selama ini saya pikir itu sedikit menyedihkan. Seperti memberi tanpa meminta apresiasi. Seperti anonim cengeng surat kaleng. Entah rendah hati atau rendah diri. 

Tetapi hari ini saya akui saya salah. Mendoakan bukan saja cara mencintai paling indah, tetapi juga paling mudah, universal, bebas, you name it. Doa tidak dibatasi waktu dan ruang serta dimensi. Tidak peduli jenis kelamin, agama, usia, dan norma. Bayangkan seorang ayah yang tidak dapat lagi bicara karena stroke masih dapat mendoakan anaknya. Sesama jenis dapat saling mendoakan tanpa perlu ribut apa kata orang. Seorang anak yang kehilangan ibunya masih bisa mendoakanya. Seorang bisu tetap bisa berkata-kata. Seorang yang beragama hindu dapat mendoakan orang-orang di Gaza. Seseorang dalam diam menyimpan rasa, masih bisa mencinta.

Peluh membawa Jenuh

Tidak dapat terlambat, langkahnya cepat-cepat menuruni jembatan

Tidak dapat tali pengaman, bergantung pada himpitan manusia dalam suatu kubik

Tidak dapat terlihat sepatunya di balik garis aman stasiun kereta

Jalanan. Layar. Jalanan. 

Rindu akan langkah perlahan tapi pasti, tapak penuh cerita, tawa, udara asri

Rindu akan aman uluran tangan teman

Rindu akan sol tebal melewati bebatuan bergemericik air atau rumput kering sabana

Hutan. Belukar. Hutan.

Tidak semua peluh membawa jenuh

Tidak semua keluh berarti rapuh

Rindu perjalanan yang membuat hati utuh

Iced Latte

Hot, Cold, Double Espresso, Latte, or Frappe

People have for their own taste

Some just like the smell of it

Some just can’t take it

Taste, Preferences

Like it or not is your business

Not theirs

So if they’ve done something that pissed you off

Maybe is not about the wrong and who’s better off

Maybe its a sign that you just not get enough

Maybe you just have to chill off

Luar Dalam

Jalinanya Rapi

Jelujurnya Tepat

Padananya Pas

Kacamata Manusia

Yang Tampak

Lebih Indah

Sayang sayang

Perhatikan Dalamnya

Dekat Kulit

Rasakan Rasakan

Lembut kah?

Kasar kah?

Nyaman kah?

Bukan Jalinan

Bukan Jelujur

Bukan Padanan

Itu Penting

Tapi Rasa

Juga Penting

Bertahan Disana

Seperti dalam labirin, kehilangan arah.

Setiap persimpangan tak tentu ujungnya.

Setiap keputusan tak jelas muaranya.

Bukan benar salah, ada mungkin, bisa jadi, memutar dan berbagai kombinasi probabilitas lainya.

Ingin rasanya melihatnya dari kacamata mata langit.

Memilih jalan yang benar lalu keluar.

Lalu Keluar...

Lalu Apa?

Rasanya pasti tidak sepuas peluh yang mengitari persimpangan yang sama berulang

Rasanya pasti tidak sepuas geram yang hadir di persimpangan yang sulit

Rasanya pasti tidak sepuas rasa hidup dan bersahabat dalam diri yang hadir di setiap ujung keputusan

Rasanya pasti tidak se indah doa yang terbersit dan terlukis perlahan.

Rasanya aku tahu jawabanya.

Mewujudkan Wacana

Hari ini super panjang. Pagi membuka mata, rasanya badan ini tidak mau melepas dekapan selimut. Rasanya kurang enak badan tapi apa daya pekerjaan memanggil. Aku menyampirkan tas dan kamera di pundak dan mulai melangkah ke kampus. Hari ini BOEconomica menyambut tamu lagi. Seminggu yang lalu dari Republika UNDIP, kali ini dari Media Preventia FKM UI. Pagi hingga siang kulewati masih dengan mood yang flat. Mendekor ulang mading dengan bumbu cerita dengan Kak M pun masih terlewati dengan mood yang belum meningkat. Ah hapeku bergetar. Yak satu pekerjaan lagi menanti. A dan R tidak bisa meliput acara Kanopi. Maka aku datang meliput. Karena waktu yang singkat impian makan siang pun hanya bisa diwujudkan dengan 2 bungkus roti dan es teh. Tetapi aku sama sekali tidak menyesal. Karena aku datang meliput Economic Sharing; acara menampilkan figur-figur alumni IE UI dengan berbagai latar belakang untuk berbagi cerita dengan Mahasiswa Baru IE UI. Salah satu pembicara adalah orang yang saya kagumi yaitu Ka Kiki, beliau adalah asisten Ibu Marie Elka. And somehow after ES over i feel like be draggin to the reality. After comeback to Kostan. I set up my Daily Challenges and Goals for 2013. Try to set up my life so I can live my life to the fullest. Daily Challenges is kind of investment for a good habit. I really exited to check those list of goals for 2013. At this moment I had two checklist for OPK 2013 that had been done and of course HUT BOE 35 yang udah terlaksana hari sabtu lalu.Maybe I'll post the pict later. So Semangat! Semoga di akhir tahun nanti or actually next semester aku bakal post listnya dengan seluruh centangan pada setiap kotaknya. HAP HAP! SEMANGAT MEWUJUDKAN WACANAS! Stay Humble, Stay Positive, and Have Unlimited Enthusiasm!

Its Ben's Tail, my Baby Camera.

Grumble

Hai haaaai *nyapa siapa haan*
Life is going more faster i think. Now its my second semester at University of Indonesia. I haven't write about this actually but living far from home is give many thing. I am also learning to lend on myself. Yes now on the phage of my life to learn to stand with my own feet, make my decision which path that i want to go, finding myself, chasing future, and also the most important is trying to always listen my heart.
Sometimes we are to busy to going forward but forget to celebrate the moments. Now i learn to enjoy it, encore every single second.
i have so many things to be written, soon. But it is not the right time cause this still my midterm-exam-week.
catch ya later, maybe you can check up my flickr haha. Since i can't take my canvas to my "kostan" so here i am with my new hobbies being "newbie-narsis-fotogafer". The good news is my mom is going to sent me my violin, yayness!
P.S.
Recommended Book : Berjuta Rasanya by Tere Liye
Recommended TV Series : REVENGE ( can't resist Gabriel Mann~ )

PSIKOPAD! #6 :''D

yeah thanks to Allah and to all PSIKOPAD! #6 and to all of Padmanaba member that had supported PSIKOPAD! #6 :'D
So happy to realize that is done yeah hana its doneee yeaaa :"D
Wanna tell you behind the scene of PSIKOPAD #6
This journey begins when ivan and ben and me have a talk, they asked me to be usaha dana coordinator just call it "co usda" . You know, that time, after "Padmanaba Cup 2010" done i feel that its not stopped now, then what a gift! i'm being a part of PSIKOPAD! #6 crew, with Ivan Pratama as a chairman (i think i have enrolled many events w/ him pphk, padcup, then psikopad -___- ). I said to ben and ivan that i want to talk to my parents first, but its kinda 80% yes beacuse it cannot be nobody else, then i go home, i cried on my way home, i just can't hold it, i called vivin but she didn't take it, then i called syahra, then i go to her house to talk to her, i just can't hold it for myself. Its was a big pressure, i came home, i was afraid to talk to my parents, i ask Ivan for help, then i talk w/ my mother, then I said yes to be co usda PSIKOPAD! #6
Pressure and stressful days come from January till 22nd May 2011
Problems came and will never go if  i didn't solve it, I was afraid to wake in the morning because i was afraid what problems today, strict schedule, tons of things to do, i can't focus on lesson on school, i forget to eat, parents fight again and again, they wanted to divorce, other side i must control my 22 partners to made our project clear, you know, almost every night i cried on my sleep, cried on my prays, cried when share it with my friends. I can't be explode person, I just cried. I smile to school, pretend to be everything-allright to everybody because smile is the last reason for me to be happy (writing this with tears is like open such as scar)
But I thanked to Allah, because i learn many things yeah many things from PSIKOPAD! #6
Problem will never gone, exept you fix it. Learn to be more positive, use my time well, keep working, and the best lesson is Back to Allah, yes Allah will granted your dreams as long as you work hard and pray . be strong and keep going. World is never easy never kind , weak person just can't survive in this wolrd.

Then 22nd May 2011, Allah granted our dream, paid our hard work

picture taken fom Kalawarta Padmanaba

stike back ;)

yuhuuu mommaa is homeee hahaha
its holiday yeeaay actually we must go to school if we had remedial test but if not its our rights to spend a whole day :D
then because PSIKOPAD! #6 done it's like free feeling (i promise to write more about psikopad next time)
i can read more books, watch more movies, lot of time to be killed haha but its give me chance to apply the lesson that i have learn from psikopad!#6 "use your time well, doing something worth it, and just do it!"
So i kind of make over my blog ( and loved the result :)) ) so i can blabbering here, i'm trying to write in english because i want to learn more and fix my bad-english
very exited to write more, see ya ;)